PLAIN RANTING, really.

October 6, 2013 | 3:24pm

This dream I'm checking out in the internet now is the dream I have last night. You know how forgetful I am when it comes to my dreams. I mean, who isn't? Anyways, there are 3 things I'm sure were present in my dreams :

A big ship. A yellow shark of some sort. And tons of sea water. 

Haha! I mean, obviously, because there was a shark and a ship, most likely there is tons of water. 

This ship and sea thing has been going on a lot, I have other dreams that I'm sure include them. I even told Bob about the Hunger Games themed I had earlier this week too. And that dream sort of included the sea and the ship, although the shark wasn't there. 

So, we were four in the dream - I don't recall the two other guys but Renzy was there and that we were in a big ship and was transferred to a multicab looking vehicle that brought us to another place (still in the water, maybe a cave or underwater, I am not sure. But there was an area that did not have water; so I'm thinking maybe a cave **not sure really) And two of the boys were playing in a square platform with an arcade sort of machine in it. They were sitting and kind of engrossed about it. 

I remembered being so scared to stand on the the platform and that this platform looked rather unbalanced (because obviously it was on water); and that I had a splinter on one of my toes and blood was dripping which I'm sure seems inviting to sharks. Duh.

I was so careful in going down a ladder to the platform when a hint of blood dropped on the water which instantly invited a **yellow shark (serious) which had spots in it and seemed enthralled with that blood. The 2 guys I was saying that were playing the arcade were named Eduardo and Lorenzo too. (I have no idea who Edward is and his relevance here) Anyways, I said I was with 3 guys in this dream; the other guy was helping me from the stairs but I can't recall his face or what we called him. 

Here are the results of my searches : 

Shark 

To see a shark in your dream indicates feelings of anger, hostility, and fierceness. You are undergoing a long and difficult emotional period and may be an emotional threat to yourself or to others. Perhaps, you are struggling with your individuality and independence, especially in some aspect of your relationship. Alternatively, a shark represents a person in your life who is greedy and unscrupulous. This person goes after what he or she wants with no regards to the well-being and sensitivity of others. The shark may also be an aspect of your own personality with these qualities.

Ship (There are other interpretations, but this was what happened in my dream.)

To dream that you abandon ship indicates that you need to move on and let go. Your emotion may be holding you back. Alternatively, consider the phrase "jumping ship", to indicate changing of sides.

Ocean 

To see an ocean in your dream represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything. If you are sailing across the ocean, then it signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage. If the ocean is rough, then the dream represents some emotional turmoil. You are doing your best to handle life's ups and downs.

To dream that you are kissing the ocean floor implies that you are coming to terms with your emotions.

Sea 

To see the sea in your dream represents your subconscious and the transition between your subconscious and conscious. As with all water symbols, it also represents your emotions. The dream may also be a pun on your understanding and perception of a situation. "I see" or perhaps there is something you need to "see" more clearly. Alternatively, the dream indicates a need to reassure yourself or to offer reassurance to someone.?It brings about hope, a new perspective and a positive outlook on life no matter how difficult your current problems may be.

To dream that you are lost at sea suggests that you are drifting around in life without any direction. You are feeling overwhelmed by emotions.

Blood

To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Some of your past actions have come back to haunt you. Women often dream of blood or of someone bleeding shortly before or during their periods or while they are pregnant. For a pregnant woman in particular, blood in dreams is symbolic of the life force that they are carrying. Such dreams are also a reminder to take things slow. To dream that others are bleeding signifies an emotional cry for help. If you dream that you are giving or donating blood, then it suggests that you are feeling physically drained due to stress.?If blood is squirting everywhere, then the dream implies that you are experiencing some deep emotional stress. You are literally bursting.

That's a lot of emotional stuff that needs confrontation really. Reading them just makes me all stressful and relentless. Honestly, I was taken aback with the line "Some of your past actions have come back to haunt you." Scary. Super.

How do I do these emotional confrontations? I'm just super scared and really exhausted. I feel so sad and honestly alone. Hmmmmmm.

Yesterday, I accompanied my dad in going to a local barbershop to have his hair cut. It was interesting for me since that the first time ever that I saw my dad having a haircut, let alone accompany him. I mean, I see him go home and then report that he had his hair done, but never really came to seeing him have it done in person, until now.

In this small barbershop, I was able to see men playing chess outside the shop and was kind of surprised when I entered the shop because apparently, women rarely go there. Although there was this young lady watching as a kid was having a haircut, I'm not sure though if the kid was hers or she was just an older sister bringing a 3 year old boy in the shop.

So, there I was, looking at 3 men having their haircut and I thought to myself, cutting hair seems fun and the barbers are fun too! They talk animatedly towards their customers and laugh and agree with whatever their customers seem to talk about. And boy, these men know when something's wrong with their haircut. I thought they just wait and see what will unfold of their haircut, boy I was wrong.

The photo above is something I just got from Google. I think it best describes the man who cut the hair of my dad, except that the barber actually did not have hair. Haha. I have a couple of guy friends who prefers to have their hair done in salons, but on a side note, these guy friends are not straight, so makes me want to ask if straight men going to barber shops and gay or bi men prefer salons? I'm sure it's not always the case. Maybe I just have few straight guy friends who prefer salons really. And maybe these straight friends are more into straight activities. HAHA. Does that even exist? *note the HAHA there :)

Anyways, the barber shop trip was faster than I anticipated, compared to women having their haircuts really. My dad seemed happy about his haircut plus he got a 5-minute massage which he seemed to have liked. Which is always a good thing. My dad said he really liked that one specific bald barber do his hair because he's good at it and since his other favorite barber died already. I'm thinking we really have that person whom we trust our hairs too. Won't you agree?

Too much for this barber trip. Got to make me some tea. Good night!

I'm kinda in the process of choosing the best photo of Alessandra Ambrosio to add in my blog today. She is like my girl crush amongst all  the pretty Victoria Secret Angels and thought of picking out a stunning shot she had last 2010 for the fashion show.

Anyways, a few days back, I read an article about "the abyss" being used as a term used to call the female reproductive organ. HAHA!! It was kinda crazy for me because I was eyeing this name for a while before really joining Blogger. And just a few days after picking this name, I read the article. Below is the article I got to read in thoughtcatalog.com. 

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2013/fun-vagina-facts/

Should I actually change my name? I mean, vajayjays are great! They are the beginning of life and I just think they're fab! Tell me what you think!

INTO THE ABYSS

I guess I am in the point of my life where direction is amiss. Been trying new things to incorporate in my day to day activities in the hope of being able to see through things and maybe be able to determine what my purpose is.

I have also been travelling to places I have never been to and see possibilities and changes that may be relevant with the purpose God is trying to pull me into. One weird thing is maybe I do not know how to see through these things and I completely miss whatever He wants me to understand.

Looking at this painting my sister painted, I thought to myself, I can be the tree without the leaves. I exist; I'm present; I'm there - someone notices me and maybe is praying for me to grow but because of some circumstances, I guess - I'm just not moving forward. But why?

They said, the only reason why people are not able to see the window He has given us when the door closed, is because we we're still too busy trying to open that closed door, or is it because we actually cannot see that window?

See? I can't even explain that simple quote which I believe to be over-used; it's already a cliché in itself. It's crazy - I don't understand.

Every day is a challenge I go through like anybody else. I live life through believing that the day would turn out great and just fine. And that tomorrow is another promise that He will show me the way.